I lie here, crumpled
On the ground
Heart beating slowly
My head is empty
I can’t breathe
Don’t have the strength to eat or sleep
Where are you now
When I need you?
I’m dying for your touch
There’s only emptiness
Unwelcome and forlorn
Surrounding me and my heart
I don’t even have the strength to blink
I just lie here, unmoving
Staring into the darkness
I need you here,
Need to see your face
Need to feel you lying next to me
All of a sudden they hit me,
The memories
Flooding my head like an Indian monsoon
I scream,
Trying to empty my head again
It’s torture to remember
I squeeze my eyes shut
And claw at the empty air
Trying to find some hope
And then, I see you
Right here, beside me
Staring into my eyes
And those eyes
Seem to bore into my very soul
Soothing me and my tormented mind
But in a second, they’re gone
And I’m left alone
With only my pain for company
Tears fall to the ground,
Along with my shattered dreams
And form a pool of darkness
My whole body hurts,
Longing for yours
As I lie here, almost lifeless
All my nights are like this,
Long and lonely
With you so far away
I miss you,
Want to feel your kiss
Never want to let you go
Don’t know what to feel,
Don’t know what to say
I can only wait for the day we reunite
But till then,
I’m on my own,
Trapped within these agonizing walls
Sometimes I even talk to myself
Am I just a fool?
Or are you thinking about me too?
The night grows older,
It’s becoming cold
The inky blackness seems to close in on me
Where are you?
I need you here
I’m lying broken on the cold, hard ground.